READY FOR THE WORLD

1. Mamiya RB67 Pro S and 180 mm lense
2. Rick Owens merino wool scarf
3. Leather pouch from Selected
4. Second Hand suede ankle boots
5. How To Dress Well - I wish (R.Kelly cover)

Some things I'm obsessed about, not getting enough of low key covers of hip hop...

I'M SOMEWHERE YOU SHOULD GO

I've forgotten to eat and drink (water obviously) and I'm crying over a self-help book on page 10. Over the story of Julio Iglesias. I don't even seem to remember that I broke my new camera day after having it or anything else I've been stressing this past year. I'm not tired though I'm semi-hangover and haven't had a full sleep for days. I'm basically on top of the world. Why? See, I've made a pretty decent decision. One afternoon while checking out different places to print the boy calendar, I ended up looking what it would cost to do a small magazine batch and thought, fuck it, I've been dreaming about my own magazine for years and I've seen friends do it, why don't I just do it now when I can? And even now when I'm just throwing ideas around, I can't remember being this excited about anything ever. The feeling of answering the question "How is it going, how are you doing?" with "I'm great, I'm doing a magazine" instead of bitter "Ask me later", it's something different and new to me. Whatever comes out of this yet nameless project is secondary compared to the feeling.

I can deal with the rejection letters a lot better, but I'll keep them in my door for now.
I have also noticed that there are some genuinely nice people in this planet.
Which is great for me because they'll wake up 8am to model for you and be ok with wearing only a nightgown in freezing cold nights for a shoot.
Also, thanks for the universe that I found the perfect Italian-made wool pants...from my own closet.
And the gun-shaped white soap that I bought today from Helsinki10.
And baile funk and house, obviously.

Ps. 10-year old boy did my make-up for a feature in CIRCUS bookazine that is out now in Finland, get yours from Stockmann!

I'M HUNGRY FOR THE POWER

Varpu in studio, 2010.

The first week of being 20 has been great.
I've held a succesful birthday party where everyone was at their finest.
Roses and sparkling wine and too much punch.
You know what follows...
I've bought my first digital camera,
og Helmut Lang silk dress (23 euros, lets get it on)
and Rick Owens merino scarf...with my student loan.
I've seen sunset at 3PM and frozen supermarket entrance door.
Hello, I'm in Finland and it's cold.
And today I've started layout for school calender.
It's going to be huge.
It's a boy calender.
You'll want one!

GOTTA GIVE INTO THE NIGHT, LIVE LIKE YOU'RE ALIVE

Me, Laura and Lili chilling in the decks of a boat this summer.
Beautiful sunset.
We had a fun day trip to Estonia.
We smoked cherry cigars in some random playground and then missed our boat back home and had to pay a lot for another.
But it was all good. Too sweet Hungarian sparkling wine is all good.
Love you guys.






Ps. Azari and iii - Into the night

KEEP THE CROWN, CLOWN

Long fur vest, second hand.

Dear life, this constant headache, not cool, not cool at all right now. Massive hate.
Oh look, I'm also three weeks late with school assignments.
That delicious drink is what I've been using to push down the fever,
trying not to cry with the help of cake and baile funk and guitar covers of rap songs.
Ten kilos of photo equipment, 17 frames shot, weak heart and snow in the ground...

...lets do this.

meet me in the studio, letting go all I know

Some time ago (it's funny when you lose your sense of time, for whatever reason) photographer Heta Saukkonen asked me to model for her series she was doing for school. And this how it turned out! I'm wearing some of my favorite clothes this fall, print shirt wrapped as skirt, linen shrug and maroon vest and a mesh body.



OH AND IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!
No Armand de Brignac for me, just being alone home with a fever watching Wim Wenders' and french films...
Luckily I've got a bar of Amedei's Porcelana and issues of V and Vogue Paris to keep me alive.
It is what it is...and then you're twenty.

WELCOME TO KIASMA

....to Kultu X Heta Kuchka's exhibition Eka Kerta - First Time opening Friday 19th and to our event day on Saturday 20th when admission to under 25-year-olds is FREE! Check out the Facebook event page where you can find more info and event day's schedules (tattoos & prints!)

I shot the advertisement images for the flyer, it's pretty exciting to have tons of flyers with your work on them with official logos and stuff.

We (bunch of 17-24-year-olds + the artist + 3 museum workers + everyone who has helped us) have been working on the exhibition for the past year and it has been really intense.
Everyone has done an amazing job,
it's extremely exciting and very challenging to push this kind of thing through a huge museum organization.
But we did it.
And it has been therapeutic, to say.
Us youth, young adults, we are dealing with expectations and constant pressure every day...
You just have to deal with it somehow.
What's your biggest fear?

WE SAY GOODBYE IN THE POURING RAIN AND I BREAK DOWN AS YOU WALK AWAY

What's better than a perfectly melodramatic and freezingly stylish song like
Hurts - Stay ? Well, the remix of it! Somehow the song is giving me 90s boyband vibes which is not a bad thing at all...
I hope they wear all white and grab sand in the music video.


An old Helmut Lang advertisement from Doppelgänger.

I run alongside rush hour traffic, a prayer for every car

Hello! I turn 20 on Sunday so I thought I should wrap my last week as a teenager up in style and make it special. So, say hello to my
interview with vogue.it! Young & sophisticated! I decided to celebrate this with lighting up a candle in a very special candle-holder. Yes, it's a cat and yes, so far it's the best christmas present I've ever had.

Ps. the photographs of me and my friend's band DINOSAURUXIA that accompany the interview were taken by my talented friends Sinikka Konttinen, Helen Korpak, Sanna Lehto and Emilia Lagk, check out their work and make them work!

I SEE THE FIRE BURNING IN YOUR EYES

It's like dark cherry chocolate,
it's listening to Kim Ann Foxman's mixtape over The Fader,
it's like the greyness of expired film negatives,
it's a fucking huge pile of expensive magazines,
it's like the autumn has seen itself in you,
it's like a takeover with melancholic smiles and kisses,
sweet,
flowing,
it's not a flaw it's a feature,
dictionary I keep reading from your face,
right here,
stay here,
you are right here and this is where we make the future.
There world isn't ours but with you guys I've never felt like I need it.
Enough is enough, but what exactly is enough we all define by ourselves.
Think about it, if you aim too high you're not even losing when you achieve the 10 percent of it, just saying.





Photos unicornetta
Jacket, bracelet & ring 2nd hand, necklace 2.50 from Seppälä sale bin

Truth to be told, it takes more than taking a picture for you to lose your soul

Test with Laura in studio, 2010.

Huge problems in camp Karjaa today.
I really used to think that scanning films was the future...
So I hope to present you a fine print of the image above in the near future.


Quote of the day:

“Don’t steal from us,” said the manager. “Steal from some shitty corporation. We have fair-trade labor. I mean fair labor. We are subsidized by the government. We have goals that are aesthetically pleasing to the general public who wouldn’t ever use the word ‘aesthetically,’ which is part of why I think we still exist, or something.”

“I spend my money on even better places,” I said. “Organic vegan restaurants.”


SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL - By Tao Lin

SOMEONE GREAT

David Shrigley on my windowsill.

I FEEL IT ALL

In our class, alone, blastin out Theophilus London cover of Oops and Rusko's remix of California Love, while loading old film to my own Mamiya.
For a moment,
first snow,
random blue hair,
have I ever felt better?


Probably, but right now it really doesn't matter.
I have tried to enjoy the moment for so long, I think I'm getting it, now, slowly.

I WANNA KNOW YOUR NAME

Leather gloves at some Estonian leather workshop. They were around 70 euros, not bad.

- Ben, don't do that thing
- What thing?
- The thing that you do when you compare yourself to everybody else in the world and then get upset cause you're not doing better than they are

After a weekend of writing important things like answering vogue.it interview (wait, did I just say that, no biggie......not! I am very excited!) and only coming up with adjectives like dope, mad, fresh and heavy, I decided that it was time to take up on writing again. I can do this. Lets start with that I had a How To Make It In America marathon and it was strangely therapeutical. It was like the TV equivalent of reading a Paul Arden book. And I love those books.

YEAH, LIFE IS LIKE THAT, BEAT ME UP AND I'LL FIGHT YOU RIGHT BACK

Let me just have a drink or two before I run off to handle business on a Friday evening. Wait, did I just say? Yes. I have to write and measure, see you later!

They say the memories all fade out, fade out, all played out.........................tell me did you feel that?

1. Laura in Gilles et Dada changing room
2. Suvi's new RO
3. Mornings with friends and youtube...
4. Gorillaz - Doncamatic (Joker Remix). 0:55 + 1:26.

DON'T LISTEN TO IT

Since the new issue of I Love You magazine has been out for a while and I'd knew this if I didn't live in a small town, I decided to post some more favorites from the old issues. Check out an interview with the magazine's founder, Christiane Bördner, here!





"What was the secret to success?" His reply was, "You know that voice inside your head that tells you to stop running when you're tired? Well don't listen to it." - Will Smith