Laura on our dorm floor
Hi everyone!
I just wanted to write it down somewhere that I am really frustrated and just pretending everyone I am having super fun here. Of course I am enjoying, that's not the problem, but it's just hard to not do things without a camera and a laptop when you are studying photography, it's hard to get an semi-ok job without connections or looks and it's super hard to also achieve self-confidence if you have a really shitty way of looking at things! Last week a friend of mine said "I'm a bit concerned if you view the world like this..." which is true so I guess I need to do an reality check, oh, this is the reality...being pissed about reading how someone's dad bought their mac and then being more angry at myself for not working a shitty job to get things I need because I expected that magically, my situation would some point change to better too. Alas, well, yeah, I am not blogging from NYFW or wearing dope original Helmut Lang, and I guess there is a dilemma between feeling happy and actually getting what you want that I just discovered two minutes ago.
Anyways...I just really would've loved to start my term in Stockholm University but I've become to know myself and I probably wouldn't have been happy there either. I just crave validation so much, though it's so much bullshit,
kissing in the rain, all that.
And these are such bullshit problems but bear with me, I'm just another blogger.
But I mean, look at that photo, it's just like I learned how to use photoshop clone tool and had a really bad love affair with it....except that I just did learn how to use it. Too bad, too bad...